[She remains there still, her embrace becoming a little tighter again.]

I... don't really know.

[No, she does know...]

I want to trust people here, but I'm so afraid they will betray me now. I... got scared that I couldn't trust you either.

[Though could anyone really blame her for that?]

My dream... when I learned of my destiny, I fell into a slump. Taking advantage of that, one of my 'friends' had taken my hostage and given me to the commandant of the knights-- someone else I trusted. They both... ended up using me. One because of his orders, the other because I was a weapon. It was after that I apparently had wished for my friends to... to kill me... since I was under the Commandant's control.