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trusthell2017-03-04 06:14 pm
matchbreaker) wrote in trusthell2017-03-04 06:14 pm
I still regret every word, that day, I never said
[ This trial was a mess. Hard on everyone, filled with conflicting emotions, and the twists and turns in it made it unsatisfying for everyone involved. That's probably become the norm at this point though! As have the gatherings in the aftermath of them. This time around the letter comes under everyone's door fairly quickly into the evening, following only a short delay for those organizing it to get things together and console themselves enough to be presentable. ]
[ The dining room's set up is once again fairly simple. Hanyuu broad board games, Elda brought some rpg books though she doesn't expect anything to come of it, and there are a lot of envelopes, paper, and pens from the mail room. The mail room's going to close tonight, of course, but most of the letters will probably be written privately anyway. Elda just wanted people to be sure they knew they could.
Food wise, there's grilled meat and fish, rice, cream puffs (all Hanyuu!) Mikazuki's tea (both black and green!) and Elda's ... spicy fries. Some of them are more mild! However, the mild ones are covered in sugar so uh... that's probably not better. Either way, have at ]
Come to the dining room if you want to be with people. I will have board games, cards, food, and drink. We also will be writing letters to the dead, if you want to do that around others.
- Elda, Hanyuu, and Mikazuki
[ The dining room's set up is once again fairly simple. Hanyuu broad board games, Elda brought some rpg books though she doesn't expect anything to come of it, and there are a lot of envelopes, paper, and pens from the mail room. The mail room's going to close tonight, of course, but most of the letters will probably be written privately anyway. Elda just wanted people to be sure they knew they could.
Food wise, there's grilled meat and fish, rice, cream puffs (all Hanyuu!) Mikazuki's tea (both black and green!) and Elda's ... spicy fries. Some of them are more mild! However, the mild ones are covered in sugar so uh... that's probably not better. Either way, have at ]
gangrel's room
[She knew she'd find her here. She knew, and yet...Hanyuu waits for a moment, in the doorway, while Lusamine cries. To interrupt such a moment...
...
Nevertheless, eventually, she will clear her throat, softly, and take a few loud steps into the room.]
I will leave you be...if you so wish it.
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I don't want to be alone. You're just as welcome here as I am.
[Today has been a mess and a half.]
...Thank you, for coming by. Did you need something?
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[She says that just straight out, crossing the room so she can speak quieter and Lusamine will still hear her.]
There are... Well, there are a few things I should probably say to you...starting with an apology.
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[...You know what.]
Hanyuu. I'm...not angry, if that is what you are wondering.
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...I still would like to. The idea you could be involved crossed my mind and...well, it carried me away. I couldn't...let it go by, so swiftly, but I should have. And for that, I am sorry. That, and...for everything that did happen.
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[She wants that so badly, even if she'd never tell him--]
...I'm in no place to judge your actions. But...thank you. I mean that entirely.
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It's normal to feel like that. It...will feel like that, for a long time. Watching... Losing the one you love, in such a way...
But...I would like...to be there to help you, if I can.
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[She's gonna keep reaffirming this until she gets it to stick, dammit. But...she's looking at that crown Gangrel left for her, and the gems on her outfit. ...Hmm. She picks up the crown gently.]
Could I ask for your assistance, then, in helping me wear this? And...if you can, tell me about the woman this belong to. Emmeryn, I believe. If you can, of course.
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I'll help. You'll need to sit, though. [Lusamine's a bit taller than her.] I...don't know much about her, but I know enough to share a little.
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[Lusamine takes a seat at the desk. She does forget sometimes, that people aren't exactly tall. That, and it's nice to sit there.]
...I never did bother to ask him. We were far too focused on making fun of our shortcomings and bantering, and...
[...]
I wish I did, in hindsight.
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[Hanyuu takes a moment to think of what to say, and...to think of how to wrangle all that hair, honestly.]
But I think...he enjoyed that, in conversations with you. Emmeryn, she... She was the leader of Ylisse, the country rival to his. Despite how he'd gloat, I don't think...the last few weeks, I think he liked thinking about that conflict he left less and less.
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...ah, she moves her arm a bit to catch a stray tear.]
Ah...I suppose it may have been for the best that I knew nothing. Even so, I can only imagine...
[...]
What kind of person was she? Did he ever tell you?
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[How to put this...]
He said I reminded him a lot of her. Self-sacrificing, forgiving, stubborn in keeping peace. ...She infuriated him, because she wanted to help him as well, and he...wanted to take revenge, because of what her father had done to Plegia many years before.
It sounds to me...the two clashed in ideology, intensely, and he couldn't rectify it.
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The most it gets is a nod from Lusamine, and a bit of fiddling with the black gem in her hair--]
...They probably never would be able to. It sounds like their ideologies are complete opposites, and they would likely never be able to understand one another.
[Removing the gem, Lusamine looks back down at the crown.]
...I wonder if I'm worthy of such a thing.
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[Hanyuu places her hands on Lusamine's shoulders.]
What do you think...it would mean to be "worthy" of it? It's what the man you love left you, isn't it? Doesn't... I think that alone makes you "worthy."
[She doesn't know what kind of person Lusamine is. There have been many things that have made her question it, and yet... Those things don't matter. She's seen love from her. Deep emotion, deep devotion.
That matters. That's what "worthy" is for her.]
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[...she really spoke without thinking, didn't she? Lusamine shakes her head.]
...You have a point. That was quite silly of me to say. He did say that I was the only one who could make it look good. I don't have a thing to live up to.
[She is worth it, right? She's worth a lot of things. People's attention, consideration, adoration, everything. But...Lusamine's arms go up to cross against her chest and she taps her finger against her arm. She's been drawing comparisons since she got in here, and...]
...I suppose I wonder if it means I'm not allowed to keep those things.
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[She fixes Lusamine's hair, gently, to pass the time until she hands her the crown.]
Did something happen to make you believe so?
Pokemon Sun and Moon spoilers
[She doesn't know if the few who do know have spread the information around, but...]
I can't help but feel like...this was some kind of punishment, for finally feeling the ability to move past it...
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...No, it wasn't. I... [...] Humans use that word a lot, I've found. "Punishment." No, Lusamine. If anything... He would be happy, to know you'd found a new kind of joy. No just god would punish you, for starting to move on.
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[Lusamine's hands go into her hair and grip on it, furiously, like she's very close to tearing it out.]
They both left me behind...!
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They didn't want to. I know, I'm positive- they wanted to stay with you.
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It's completely unfair. Completely unfair in it's entirety. I want him to come back so I can shake some sense into him...
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Thank you, Hanyuu. I...I can't bear the thought of thinking he's gone for good. He may have done something so incredibly stupid, but he's my irritatingly stupid love.