Tch. I would've fought the entire way, but I know how I act. How I am. It didn't look good for me or any of us.

...Killia wouldn't have wanted everyone to die, though. His other self would have, but I don't think he could have gone through with it.

[It's just a hunch and he's already been proven wrong about Killia before, but maybe some small part of him wants to believe that.]