[ Everything Elda's saying... it just reinforces the thoughts she's been trying to shove down, shove back to a place they can't be accessed. Maybe if she hadn't been a burden, hadn't accepted Hanyuu's kind offer, Elda wouldn't have come after her.
But... then again, maybe Elda would've taken out her anger and frustrations on someone else--if that's what's happening, here. And Vanille doesn't want any of her friends, the ones who are left, to feel the pain she's feeling right now. ... But would they have? Elda's right. Vanille's... she's leaned on people since the beginning.
But. ]
Relying on others doesn't mean you're weak. [ She bristles a little bit. ] And I never wanted to be the Saint! I never asked for that!
[ Changing her profile... that had come from being sick of having her fate decided for her. Ever since she'd been small, she'd been given two paths: Complete the Focus given to her and turn to crystal, or fail and become a monster. And when she'd woken from her crystal sleep, she'd never had a single chance to do anything but be the Order's Saint. Their puppet. A martyr. ]
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But... then again, maybe Elda would've taken out her anger and frustrations on someone else--if that's what's happening, here. And Vanille doesn't want any of her friends, the ones who are left, to feel the pain she's feeling right now. ... But would they have? Elda's right. Vanille's... she's leaned on people since the beginning.
But. ]
Relying on others doesn't mean you're weak. [ She bristles a little bit. ] And I never wanted to be the Saint! I never asked for that!
[ Changing her profile... that had come from being sick of having her fate decided for her. Ever since she'd been small, she'd been given two paths: Complete the Focus given to her and turn to crystal, or fail and become a monster. And when she'd woken from her crystal sleep, she'd never had a single chance to do anything but be the Order's Saint. Their puppet. A martyr. ]