[ And with the new context of her life here, after befriending Hanyuu, hearing about her husband, hearing about her daughter... after befriending Lusamine and accepting Kimihiro; after forgiving Silver and kissing Gold; after cooking her first meal and sleeping in the same bed as someone else other than James Marker-
After tearfully admitting that she would love James Marker even if he was a human, and all that entailed-
How can she still hold on to that?
Elda's gaze falls, She looks down at her hands. He hands are smudged with paint and sharpie, but in his mind's eye it really might as well be blood. She's not sure how much of that is the blood she would have spilled if not for those far more considerate than her in her life, if not for James Marker and Karin Maaka and far more recently Sportacus and Hanyuu and the others.
She had put her hesitation on the first week up to a failure on her part, idolized the actions of Kyrie Ushiromiya. She had resented Varric Tethras's characterization of her on the second week, when everyone was so sympathetic to Alani.
A lot weighs on her heart now.
A lot she has no real resolution for.
But she ... she can certainly say one thing, and say this true. She knows it's not enough, certainly not enough for Hanyuu. ]
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After tearfully admitting that she would love James Marker even if he was a human, and all that entailed-
How can she still hold on to that?
Elda's gaze falls, She looks down at her hands. He hands are smudged with paint and sharpie, but in his mind's eye it really might as well be blood. She's not sure how much of that is the blood she would have spilled if not for those far more considerate than her in her life, if not for James Marker and Karin Maaka and far more recently Sportacus and Hanyuu and the others.
She had put her hesitation on the first week up to a failure on her part, idolized the actions of Kyrie Ushiromiya. She had resented Varric Tethras's characterization of her on the second week, when everyone was so sympathetic to Alani.
A lot weighs on her heart now.
A lot she has no real resolution for.
But she ... she can certainly say one thing, and say this true. She knows it's not enough, certainly not enough for Hanyuu. ]
... She did nothing wrong.