One way or another, we were all going to be upset tomorrow. So she decided to set up something nice for us to keep up everyone's spirits. And she put her trust in whoever was working with her, but... There's a possibility that she could die because of the motive, too.

That was a risk she was willing to take.

The real question is whether she was going to write "Forgive me" or "forgive them," isn't it?