You have...you have no idea. You have no concept of the years I struggled to be the 'morally good' person I wanted to be. What 'Gretchen' tried to give me.

It was all for nothing. The first time in my life I ever truly laughed and felt happy from the bottom of my heart was when I saw a disaster ravaging the land before me. For twenty-eight years prior I struggled and clawed my way to find something 'normal' about myself, and all I found was void emptiness and a complete lack of emotion.

Don't you dare tell me I didn't try.