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[ Every week is the same song and dance, but it never really gets easier, or works, or ever seems like it’s going to stop.

There will be time for everyone to rest before Black comes knocking on their doors (a moot point, given the soundproofedness of them) and slipping a note beneath them. He needed the respite too, and they needed to prepare food, and… he still thinks it’s a little weird to have a party after a trial, but he’s starting to really understand why it’s not a bad idea, either. ]

[Name],

Misa would’ve wanted us to keep a smile on our faces, or at least put a smile somewhere. There’s a pancake bar up in the chapel, if you’d like to come by and make a few happen. If you don't want to come, that's fine, too. The offer's open all night.

Ever yours,
Black

[ …the ending is something he’s never quite shaken, unfortunately.

Those that make their way up to the chapel will, indeed, find a pancake bar, courtesy of Yosuke and Stan (because Black never feels that hungry after trials and someone needs to stress bake here). That is, there are pancakes! There are syrups, whipped cream, fruits, berries, candies, etc! Sprinkles! Hot chocolate, ice cream… everything you could want for your build-your-own-pancake masterpiece. It’s all set up on some tables shoved against the chapel’s walls.

…special Stancakes (or pancakes with a hint of Stan in them, aka some of his hair that might’ve gotten in there accidentally, whoops) are also available.

There’s also alcohol—dessert wines mostly, to pair with their overwhelming sugar bias, but there’s some ordinary stuff there too. Pancake bar.

The framed photos are where they’ve always been on the center area, along with their matching stuffed animals. …or most of them; some haven’t been made, some pictures haven’t been put up, you get the idea. ]

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[After the food is all stocked Yosuke doesn't come over to talk to Cherryblod. But it's clear he's hanging around, watching carefully.

He's not sneaky. He might go and chat people up here and there- but the moment someone new approaches his friend he breaks off to loom a few pews away before leaving again]

[Cherryblod notices. He'd have to be an idiot not to - and idiots don't last in his old line of work.]

Not even going to come say hi to me, Yosuke?

You looked busy.

[He coughs into his fist, caught]

Never too busy for you, dear. Come join me.

[He comes over and sit, the stiffness he's had all night still there, but unwinds a little. Just a little, but it's something]

[Cherryblod puts a gentle hand on his shoulder.]

Thank you. Will you be alright?

I think so. Just thinking about things.

Anything you'd like to share?

[His lips are a thin colorless line with how hard he's clenching. The black headphones Cherry gave him are covering his ears, and he twists the wire around his fingers; over and over]

Black said something during the trial that really got to me, I think. About how what we're doing in the trials is just like what Misa and her boyfriend did.

... and I can't even really be mad at him for it 'cuz he's right. And I can't be mad at Misa but not at you. I don't know what to think anymore.

[He doesn't have the experience or the words to express this crawling feeling. We're hypocrites. We're monsters. I don't know how to accept this and not lose my mind]

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You can be mad at me if you want. It's beyond justified.

...But that's probably not the answer you want to hear, is it?

[Cherryblod sighs and tries to think of something better to say. ...He's not coming up with much.]

I can't.

[It's a simple statement. He is literally unable to be.]

Sorry. It's not fair to unload that on you.

No, it's fair. I'm glad you're talking to someone about it.

...The thing about killing someone, anyone, is that nobody agrees what's a good reason and what's not. Some people think war is inexcusable, some people think that there are reasons to go to war. Some people are against the death penalty even for convicted killers. Misa thought that because she went after criminals that what she did was 'justice', but that killing Lynne and Tarrlok was inexcusable. And she thought I was pure evil.

If you have regrets, I think that's a good thing. It means that you still value people's lives, no matter what situation you're put into.

I almost wish I didn't.

I mean, not REALLY but... shit it'd be easier.

That's the price of being a good person. It's always easier to be a bad one.

[That's something Cherryblod can say with confidence, because he has been a bad person.]

[he leans on Cherry a little]

Is that why... the sign?

There's a few reasons. Couldn't let anyone get any suspicion in my place - didn't want the secret to be used against me by the Kingmaker. It'll be easier to know who my enemies are now.

Doesn't make it not terrifying to admit. Or painful to lose friends. But it's something I have to do.

[...he slips an arm around Yosuke's side, tugging him closer.]

I woulda waited a few days, if you'd asked me.

[He scoots in easily enough, too tired for pride right now]

Mm. You're probably smarter than I am.

Still, it's done. It was probably for the best, like you said.

Now all there is to do is deal with the consequences.

...I'm glad you don't hate me, even though you have every right to. As long as I have that, I can handle this.

Don't start that again, dude.

[He laughs lightly]

Just... be careful, okay?

[He can't body guard at all times, after all]

Of course I will. Can't leave fussing over you up to anyone else.

[He'll be alright. He can handle himself.]

Good. You're not allowed to die. Cuz then I'd have to start up some dramatic quest for revenge and I'm too lazy for that.

Of course. I'll be sure to survive so you can sleep in soundly in the mornings.

Hey, I'm Lazybones for a reason.

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