[SO NOT WEIRD AT ALL you know, it's fine, Hanyuu can't...really complain. She's a little busy right now to think of any connotations, just kind of...too focused right now on the words.]

R-Riku-- he was the first to ever- the first to make me feel- to tell me they weren't- [She swallows. Not continuing that line of thought.] Th- they see me- e-even now, I-I don't want to be...a wrathful god...! I don't- I don't want...anyone to be sacrificed in my name...! I just wanted...to protect everyone!