I have a dream that I want to fulfill with you...

[tsugomori]

[ Well, that was an extraordinary trial to have... it was certainly filled with many things that wouldn't be lost to the memory of most, even for weeks to come. Although, the return to "normalcy" could be something that wouldn't seem like it was wanted, it was better than the alternative to returning to anything at all.

With ease, Mikazuki find himself setting up the usual party in the usual place-- that would be the library of course. Notes have been slipped underneath the doors of others, or hung up on the walls to alert them of this post-trial "celebration" -- which was more like a get-together of some sorts now than a real party. ]


Please join us in the library again. Of course, food and drink will be provided.

- Mikazuki, Orihime, Hanyuu, & Estelle

[ The food and drink has been set out, what with there being tea, vichyssoise, cream puffs, and fish for everyone to enjoy. ]

Comments

[oyashiromama]

[It feels at least like she's finally...gotten somewhere, so she listens, face neutral, nodding along, gently.]

It's like...a lack of self-preservation? Regarding if you life or die, at least. [Which, yikes. But she's not really sure what could be done about that.] But the more intense the situation...the more likely it is you'll get some kind of stimulus and feel something.

[Even if she can't do anything- at least she can try and understand.]

Is that close?

[alchemicals]

Yeah, that's it. The only other time I really get enjoyment out of things is when I'm hurting people.

["Hurting." It's about as much a euphemism as "fireworks."]

So I think you can see where war is such a thing for me.

[oyashiromama]

[#yikes]

It...yes, it makes sense. [...this at least she can kind of understand, despite it being...everything it is.] The first time you engage in something that lights a spark- [aaaaaaaa] -that, aah, inspires something, you get entranced by it and...

[Kill a whole lot of people.]

...and it's all you want to do.

[alchemicals]

...Yeah.

But war ends, you know? And they were going to take all that away from me. People like me aren't suited to civilian life, we're not suited for anything but the battlefield. So I decided that I didn't care anymore, and that's when all the war crimes and killing my superior officers when they tried to arrest me happened.

I'm not trying to say it wasn't deliberate and that it wasn't my fault, but it wasn't really anything premeditated, either. Just...like I said, there's not a lot of forethought, and there's not a lot of feeling behind it. I just decided to do it and so I did.

[oyashiromama]

[...]

Ten years, you said? You weren't even an adult yet.

[There's something about this that's...very sad to her, really.]

I think... I think I'm starting to understand a little more why you tend to be so...aah, difficult in trials.

[alchemicals]

...Do you?

[He sort of wants to hear this, not even gonna lie.]

[oyashiromama]

[She expected that but still seems a little nervous speaking. ...It's seriously not you, Kimbley, she's just a nervous creature.]

Well... I don't mean to presume, but...you said yourself, if you die you don't care, so...why follow orders and make things easy? The worst-case scenario, you die, but the best...maybe something about the high-stakes situation will be enjoyable or- or at least maybe it will make things more interesting.

[alchemicals]

...Yeah. Yeah, that's it exactly.

[Good job, Hanyuu.]

[oyashiromama]

[This social link is going some places. She's momentarily a little surprised for...actually being right but she guesses all those years of watching people have come in handy.]

It's not something I can exactly relate to...but it's not too hard to understand, if I try and listen. Thank you, for sharing this with me.

[she really just thanked him for telling her about his fucked up life but you know there you go??]