trusthell | WEEK 6.

WEEK 6.

WEEK 6
With the deaths of Viktor Nikiforov, Varric Tethras, and Killia, you're down to half of your original number. There's only fifteen of you left.

How much longer before your number drops again?

Saturday is given to regrouping and rest; on Sunday morning the clock chimes as it always has, but at least there are no bodies to find today. It seems you're safe for now. The night before wasn't necessarily a peaceful one, however; you'll probably feel a bit groggy when you wake up, and it seems you've regained something that you didn't realize you'd lost...

Of course, that doesn't mean that you've gained nothing else among the many, many losses you've faced; it seems that another floor has been made available to you for surviving another week.

Congratulations and well done, even if you might not necessarily appreciate the reward.

APPRENTICES REMAINING: 15

SUNDAY | MONDAY | TUESDAY | WEDNESDAY | THURSDAY

[OOC: Welcome to week six of Trustfell! Feel free to make as many top levels as you'd like and tag out to other characters! This post is for all of your interactions this week... at least until the weekend. Don't forget to save those threads for coins and the activity check!

If you'd like to get in contact with the Wordsmith, you can do so through letters or the switchboard!]

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[And open the door she does again. When she sees it's Hanyuu, she makes sure to back off from the door a bit and open it enough for the other to enter.]

Thank you. You... didn't need to do all this.

[Her voice is still tired, but there's a hint of gratefulness in it.]

I wanted to.

[Enter she does, and she sets the food down on the desk.]

Your company and support has been such a help to me, Estellise. I couldn't simply leave you alone, unattended. I care for you.

[She gives a slight smile until it fades, however she doesn't go to the food quite yet.]

I... appreciate it. Now I understand what... it's like to feel like this. The death it was hard... but I never... lost a really good friend before. Not even back home.

[The poor girl. And for this to be the first time...]

I'm not going to lie to you and say it goes away...nor will I say it gets "easier," because in my experience, it doesn't. ...But it gets...different. You become more accustom, either to loss in general, or the absence of the loved one.

...It may be paralyzing right now, but it won't be, forever.

That's what others have told me. I... don't ever want to get used to this. It... hurts so much.

[And it hurts just as much to distrust others that she trusted before.]

[...]

We will escape this place, Estellise. And you won't have to.

I... I certainly hope so.

[Because this... she cannot stand this.]

You have to believe...or it will crush you. Okay?

[It must be so weird, after the last weeks, to hear Hanyuu saying this, but-]

I believe we'll get out of here. I'll believe for you...until you can find that again.

[Someone needs to hope for everyone, and it's definitely not Estelle right now.]

Thank you...

[She moves in, and leans against Hanyuu so her forehead is against the god's shoulder.

She speaks again, and her voice is still soft, but it shows some emotion.]

...I... really don't know what to believe anymore. I don't know who to trust. I fear... that I'll feel this pain again.

[...For the first time, when someone expresses this fear to her, she can...

Hanyuu reaches her arms around Estelle, for a hug.]

It's sometimes unavoidable...but know living like this, locked up and in fear...that is by far worse. I've seen...many good children let paranoia eat away at them, 'til they become shadows of their former selves. But I've also...seen them rise above it. And I believe you can do the second. It will be hard...but you have to remember the people you care about. The reasons you care about them. The things that make you smile. Keep them in your mind, and reach out when you're in need.

That's what I've learned, in my time as a god.

[When Hanyuu hugs her, Estelle embraces her back. It's tight, but it's a sign of how much she's come to care for Hanyuu and how close of a friend she thinks of her. To push past that distrust she was feeling and to try and trust those she asked to trust her, even if she never explicitly said it.]

I... care about so many people here. And I don't want to lose them. I... don't want to see them become murderers over these 'incentives' or because they can't control themselves. I'm... powerless to help them so I feel...

...I feel that I'm just useless.

[At home she felt useful. She could heal others. She could give herself a purpose. Here... she can do nothing.]

...I know what that can feel like.

[People think gods are so powerful, but really-]

I've been at points...very recently, in my memories and here, where I've felt like the only outcome is pain, and that I'm doomed to watch as everyone dies, able to do nothing. [...] But that... If we fall into that, then it becomes more and more true. You have to, even if it seems like you're doing nothing, believe in yourself.

As hard as that may be. ...Because I guarantee, even if you can't prevent a tragedy...the ones you love, to them- you haven't done nothing. You've given them joy, and happiness, and that counts for so much.

If we press on, I know we can reach a future where we can all be happy. If we all keep trying, and believe in ourselves and each other.

I... I want to reach that future. I... just want everyone to be okay and to be happy.

[But even that feels like so much to ask for now. Like it's impossible.]

I... will try to believe.

[She pulls back, to look Estelle in the eye.]

And until you can fully, I will for you.

Now...try to eat something. It will help, I know.

[Estelle nods as she pulls away and goes to the desk to get the omurice. She'll come back and place it on her lap as she sits on the bed and take a bite.

She doesn't say anything, though.]

[And you know, that's alright. However long Estelle wants to stay quiet, if Estelle wants to tell her to leave, if she just wants to sit there in silence- that's alright.

She will sit with her, until it's time to leave. Everyone needs their time.]

[Estelle honestly appreciates that a lot. She really does...]

This is yummy...

[The fact that her words are not as formal as they normally would be would depict her current mood... but she truly is trying.]

[...A little smile.]

I'm glad it meets your approval. Eat as much as you want, or as much as you can.

I will. Thank you.

[She'll continue to slowly eat it.]

...Thank you for being kind to me even though I'm like this.

Oh, there's no even though about it. When people are suffering, we shouldn't turn a blind eye. No matter what form that suffering takes.

[She nods as a small smile forms on her face.]

I know, and thank you. Because I would always do the same for you.

Don't worry. I know so.

[She just nods. Half of her food is eaten, but she really can't stomach anymore right now.]

I... promise to eat the rest later. I shouldn't waste food someone was kind enough to make me.

Of course, you don't need to force yourself. You've had something, that's what matters.

[She nods.]

I... do feel a little better after eating some.

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