I have a dream that I want to fulfill with you...

[tsugomori]

[ Well, that was an extraordinary trial to have... it was certainly filled with many things that wouldn't be lost to the memory of most, even for weeks to come. Although, the return to "normalcy" could be something that wouldn't seem like it was wanted, it was better than the alternative to returning to anything at all.

With ease, Mikazuki find himself setting up the usual party in the usual place-- that would be the library of course. Notes have been slipped underneath the doors of others, or hung up on the walls to alert them of this post-trial "celebration" -- which was more like a get-together of some sorts now than a real party. ]


Please join us in the library again. Of course, food and drink will be provided.

- Mikazuki, Orihime, Hanyuu, & Estelle

[ The food and drink has been set out, what with there being tea, vichyssoise, cream puffs, and fish for everyone to enjoy. ]

Comments

[foundfate]

I'll do some research in the library and see if I can find anything. I know it's possible for ghosts to make themselves visible to people without powers- Doumeki and Himawari have seen them before- but I'd have to find out the circumstances for it.

[introspects]

Sure thing. Let me know if you find out anything.

[ ...Anyway. ]

Ah, sorry, I totally got off-topic there; um, but my friends... Ah, who should I start with?

[foundfate]

How about the two you wrote individual letters for? Those must be your closest friends, right?

[introspects]

Oh, well...Tatsuki-chan is my best friend since we were young...! She would stand up for me and defend me from bullies, and we've just been really close ever since.

[ As for Ichigo... ]

Kurosaki-kun... Well... [ Ah, how does she say this... ] Um, he was...he was the one in the secret.

[foundfate]

...Ah.

[Conceal, don't feel, don't let it show-]

They both sound like very important people, then. I can see why they would get special letters.

[introspects]

[ Poor Watanuki, tbh. ]

Y-Yeah... The other four are really important, too. I just...I just had more to say to Tatsuki-chan and Kurosaki-kun.

[foundfate]

[This is why he doesn't want to admit to feelings ever. He doesn't want to step on anyone's toes/feelings.]

It makes sense. If I wrote letters to home, I can think of a couple people who would get their own too.

[introspects]

[ Don't give up, boy! There's still hope left! ]

Aha...isn't it funny how it's easier to say what you want to say in times like these? I...

[ Her smile turns sad, slightly remorseful. ] I was never able to be honest with Kurosaki-kun. It's...only when I don't have to face him, that I...

...Ahaha, never mind! Sorry, I just started thinking to myself.

[foundfate]

Don't worry, I understand what you're saying.

[Keep smiling, everything will be alright if you keep smiling-]

You care a lot for him, and it's hard to talk to people when you care. Because it's hard to put feelings to words sometimes, especially when they're feelings you've only felt for one or two people before.

[introspects]

[ Only for one or two people before--Ichigo...he's the only one. The first person she'd ever fallen in love with. Love, as she's discovering, is bittersweet. ]

I...I don't think Kurosaki-kun...sees me in the same way.

[ He's always looking ahead towards something she cannot reach. There's something untouchable about Ichigo Kurosaki, something so indescribably good, and it both lifts her up and pulls her down simultaneously. ]

It's okay...as long as...I can still be there to support Kurosaki-kun, it's alright.

[foundfate]

[G O D

He hears his own reasoning in Orihime's words, so he will go ahead and tell her advice that he himself won't be following.]

That's not really fair to him. How could he even consider it if he doesn't know that you like him? He at least deserves the choice, doesn't he?

I mean, it's good that you would support him no matter what, but he gets as much say in that as you do.

[introspects]

[ IF ONLY SHE KNEW... ]

I...I understand what you mean--I just...sometimes, I think I'm...more of a liability for Kurosaki-kun than a help to him. I've really, really caused him so much trouble...

[ She briefly thinks about Rukia again, for just a split second before she shoves that thought out of her head-- ] He needs someone who can bring him up and fight beside him. And...I'm... [ She's frowning, now. ] I'm not there yet.

[foundfate]

It's still his choice to make. If it were me- [HE REALLY SHOULDN'T BE TALKING LIKE THAT] -I would want to know.

And you're so much more than a liability, Inoue-san. You're an incredible person. Don't sell yourself short.

[introspects]

...

[ Watanuki's heard about her past, about what happened in Hueco Mundo. Yet, he still manages to see her this way, and she doesn't think she deserves it at all. He's so kind. ]

I...I appreciate it, Watanuki-kun.

[ She's still feeling unworthy of being at Ichigo's side in that way, but Watanuki is trying to help. She doesn't want to keep on going in circles like this. ]

You're...you're a good person, too. Whoever is waiting for you back at home is truly fortunate.

[foundfate]

[YEAH ABOUT THAT...]

I think my friends might appreciate me more after I get the chance to apologize to them.

[If nothing else, being in murderschool has taught him just how much he took his friends for granted.]

[introspects]

...What do you mean?

[foundfate]

You know how you never really appreciate what you have until it's gone?

Yeah, it's something like that.

[introspects]

Do you...want to talk about it?

[ This sounds somewhat troubling... ]

[foundfate]

It's not something to worry about, ok?

[But he should tell her anyway.]

There's a girl, back home. I...I like her. A lot. But she likes someone else.

That guy she likes, he's kind of a jerk. Very broody and standoffish. He's not really a bad guy, he even saved my life a few times. But I could never separate him from 'the girl I like likes him instead of me', so I was always mean to him. Even after he saved my life.

I...really need to make that up to him. I wasn't very fair to him.

[introspects]

[ They should make an Unrequited Feelings club. (Or maybe not because...little does she know...) ]

I see...

[ She remembers that Rangiku talked to her about something like this before. Not the same situation, but about comparing yourself to others-- ]

I think it's normal to feel that way, though. You...really cared about her, so it sounds like you just got jealous. But you're realizing all of this, and that's what matters, isn't it? It shows that you have a kind heart. And...when you go back home, you'll have your chance to make things right.

[foundfate]

Yeah...I do.

[Forever the third wheel, that's him.]

I don't like thinking about it, but I think if I have time to get over my feelings for her, I would be okay. She's a really good friend, and she's already made her choice, so I would hate to drive her away because of my jealousy.

[introspects]

[ not for long ]

I know how you feel. I sometimes...get jealous of someone I know, too. And, like you, I would hate to drive both of them away because of it.

[ Love hurts. ]

Anyone would be lucky to have you by their side, Watanuki-kun. You're already making the right choices.

[foundfate]

[CONCEAL, DON'T FEEL-]

Maybe someday it will happen. I'm only 17, there's still plenty of time.

The same is true for you too. You may still have time with Kurosaki-san, even if it's not right now.

[introspects]

Ahaha, that means we're the same age, aren't we? Then...what's on your profile, that must be a typo?

[ 117. Damn son. ]

Well...we'll see what happens. I just want Kurosaki-kun to be happy, no matter who he ends up with.

[foundfate]

As far as I remember, it is. I wouldn't look like this if I was 117 anyway.

And like I said, don't sell yourself short. Maybe you're the person he would be happiest with.